My Nourisher! Have Mercy on the infirmity of my body, the
delicacy of my skin and brittleness of my bones.
O Thou, Who originated my creation, and accorded my
individuality, and ensured my upbringing and welfare and provided my sustenance,
I beg You to restore Your favors and Blessings upon me as You did in the
beginning of my life.
O My God! My Master! My Lord! And my Nourisher! What!
Will You see me punished with the fire kindled by You despite my belief in Your
Unity? And despite the fact that my heart is filled with pure knowledge of You
and my tongue has repeatedly praised You and my conscience has acknowledged
your love and despite my sincere confessions of my sins and my humble entreaties
submissively made to Your Divinity?
Nay! You are far too generous to destroy one whom You
have nourished and supported, or to drive away from Yourself one whom You have
kept under Your protection or to scare away one whom You have given shelter, or
to abandon in affliction to one You have maintained and to whom You have been
Merciful.
I wish I have known O my Master my God! And my Lord! Will
You inflict fire on the faces which have submissively bowed in prostration to
Your greatness, or upon the tongues which have sincerely confirmed Your Unity
and have always expressed gratitude to You or upon hearts which have
acknowledged your Divinity with conviction or upon the minds which have
accumulated so much knowledge of You until they became submissive to You, or
upon the limbs which strove, at the places appointed for Your worship or to
adore You willingly and seek Your forgiveness submissively.
Such sort of harshness is not expected of You as it is
remote from Your Grace O Generous one!
O Lord! You are aware of my weakness to bear minor
affliction of this world and its consequence and adversity affecting the
denizen of this earth, although such afflictions are momentary, short lived and
transient.
How then can I bear the retributions and punishments of
the Hereafter, which are enormous and of intensive sufferings, of prolong
period and perpetual duration, and which shall never be alleviated for those
who deserve the same as those retributions will be the result of Your Wrath;
and Your punishment which neither the heavens nor the earth can withstand and
bear!
My Lord! How can a weak, insignificant, poor, humble and
destitute creature of Your be able to bear them?
O my God! My Lord! My King! And Master! Which of the
matters shall I complain to You and for which of them shall I bewail and weep?
Shall I bewail for the pains and pangs of the punishment
or their intensity or for the length of the sufferings and their duration.
Therefore my Lord! If You subject me to the penalties of
Hell in company of Your enemies and cast me those who merited Your punishment
and tear me apart from Your friends and those who will be near to You, then my
God, my Lord and my Master, though I may patiently bear Your punishments, how
can I calmly accept being kept away from You?
I reckon that though I may patiently endure the scorching
fire of Your Hell, yet how can I resign myself to the denial of Your pity and
clemency? How can I remain in fire while I have hopes of Your forgiveness?
O my Lord! By Your honor truly I swear that if You allow
my power of speech to be retained by me in the Hell, I shall among its inmates
cry out bewailing unto You like the cry of those who have faith in Your
kindness and compassion.
And I shall bemoan for You for being deprived of nearness
to You the lamentation of those who are bereaved, and I shall keep on calling
unto You: “Where are You O friend of the believers! O You is the last hope and
resort of those who acknowledge You and have faith in Your clemency and
kindness; O You who are the helper of those seeking help! O You are dear to the
hearts of those who truly believe in You! And O who is the Lord of the
Universe.
My Lord! Glory and praise be to You, would You wish to be
seen disregarding the voice of a Muslim bondman, incarcerated in the Hell for
his disobedience and imprisoned within its pits for his evil doing and
misdeeds, crying out to You the utterance of one who has faith in Your Mercy
and calling out to You in the language of those who believe in Your unity and
seeking to approach You by means of Your epithet “the Creator, the Nourisher, the Accomplisher, and the protector of the
entire universe.
My Lord! Then how could he remain in torments when he
hopefully relies upon Your past forebearance, compassion and Mercy?
And how can fire cause him sufferings when he hopes for
Your Grace and Mercy and how can its roaring flames char him when You hear his
voice and see his plight? And how can he withstand its roaring flames when You
know his flairness? And how can he be tossed about between its layers when You
know his sincerity? And how can guards of Hell threaten him when he calls out
to You?
“My Lord”, and how would You abandon him therein the Hell
when he has faith in Your Grace to set him free?
Alas! That is not the concept held by us for neither You
nor Your Grace such a reputation nor does it resemble nor that which You have
awarded by Your kindness and generosity to those who believe in Your Unity.
I definitely conclude that had You not ordained
punishment for those who disbelieved in You and had You not decried Your
enemies to remain in Hell, You would have made Hell cold and peaceful there and
there would have not been a place or abode for any one in it, but sanctified by
Your Names, You have sworn to fill the Hell with the disbelievers among the
Jinn and mankind together and to place forever Your enemies therein.
And You, exalted be Your praises, had made manifest, out
of Your generosity and kindness that a believer is not like unto him as an
unbeliever.
My Lord! My Master! I, therefore implore You by that
power which You determine and by the decree You have finalized and ordained by
which You have prevailed upon whom You have imposed it, to bestow upon me this
night, this very hour the forgiveness for all the transgressions I have been
guilty of , for all the sins I have committed, for all the loathsome acts that
I have kept secret, and for the evils done by me, secretly or openly, in
concealment and outwardly, and for evil action that You have ordered the two
noble scribes to confirm whom You have appointed to record all my actions and
be witness over me along with the limbs of my body, while observe over me
besides them and was to those acts which
were concealed from them? Which You in Your Mercy has kept secret and through
Your kindness unexposed.
O Lord! O Lord! O Lord! O My God! My Lord! My King! O
Master of my freedom, O You who hold my destiny and who is aware of my
sufferings and poverty, O You who knows my destitution and starvation, O My
Lord! O Lord! O Lord!
I beseech You by Your Glory and Your Honor, by Your supremely
high attributes and by Your Names to cause me to utilize my time, day and
night, in Your remembrance, by engaging myself in serving Your cause, and let
my deeds be such that as to be acceptable to You, so much so that all my
actions and offering (prayers) may be transferred into one continuous and
sustained effort and my life may take the form of constant and perpetual
service to You.
O my Master! O upon whom I rely. O You unto whom I
express my distress. O my Lord! My Lord! My Lord! Strengthen my limbs for Your
service and sustain the strength of my hands to persevere in Your service and
bestow upon me the eagerness to fear You and to constantly serve You.
So that I may lead myself towards You in the field with
the vanguard who are in the fore rank and be swift towards You among those who
hasten towards You and urge eagerly to be near You and draw myself towards You
like them who sincerely draw themselves towards You and to fear You like the
fear of those who believe firmly in You and thus I may join the congregation of
the faithful congregated near You (for protection).
O Allah! Whosoever intends evil against me, let ill fall
upon him and frustrate him who plots against me and assign for me a place in
Your presence with the best of Your bondsmen and nearer abode to You, for
verily that position cannot be attained except through Your Grace and treat me
benevolently, and through Your Greatness extend Your Munificence towards me and
through Your Mercy protect me and cause my tongue to accentuate Your
remembrance and my heart filled with Your love and be liberal to me by Your
Gracious response and cause my evil to appear fewer and forgive me my errors
for verily, You have ordained for Your bondsmen Your worship and hidden them to
supplicate unto You and have assured them of Your response.
So my Lord! I look earnestly towards You and towards You,
I have stretched forth my hands therefore, by Your Honor, respond to my
supplication and let me attain my wishes and, by Your Bounty, frustrate not my
hopes and protect me from the evils of my enemies, from the Jinn and mankind, O
You who is readily pleased, forgive him who owns nothing but supplication for
You do what You Will O You! Whose Name is remedy (for all ills) and Whose
remembrance is a sure cure for all ailments and obedience to Whom makes one self
sufficient; have Mercy on one whose only asset is hope and whose only armor is
lamentation.
O You! Who perfects all Bounties and Who wards-off all
misfortunes! O Light! Who illuminate those who are in bewilderment! O
Omniscient! Who knows without acquisition of learning! Bless Muhammad
(s.a.w.s.) and the Descendants (a.s.) of Muhammad (s.a.w.s.) and do unto me in
accordance with that which befits You, and deal with me not in accordance to my
worth.
May the Blessings of Allah be bestowed upon His Apostle
and the Rightful Imams from his Descendants and His peace be upon them plentifully.